Demoralised.
Weeeee, after so many months of hard work, today was the final presentation for ITB. (:
It didn't go exactly well, we were rushing to prepare the powerpoint slides, blog, facebook, twitter and so on. So I was kinda lost, I didn't really know what I was supposed to present.

Even when other groups have already started presenting in class, I was still writing my script and wondering whether those were what I should present. But anyway, I still went ahead to present with my group.

When we were standing right in front of the class, I was asked to elaborate on another part, besides the ones which I was told earlier. So naturally I was completely stunned and really lost as I was not prepared to do so.

Unfortunately, everything around you still goes on even when you are at your wits end or when you're feeling helpless as to what to do. When it was my turn to present on the part which I was very unsure about, I started off with a lil bit of courage. I was able to elaborate a lil until I really couldn't continue with that sentence. I just stood there, repeated the last few words which I've said for many many times. I cracked my brain to think of something constructive to say on the spot, but it just wouldn't work. Finally, after long awkward moments, I just blurted out a few more words just to end that sentence.

It makes me feel extremely sad as I feel as though all my efforts for the past few months have gone down the drain. I became so moody and demoralised. This was the final presentation for ITB, I wished I could have ended this with a much happier scenario, but no. It didn't come true, instead things turned out to be pretty bad for me.

Phew, but I'm feeling so much better now, after all those deep thoughts within me when I was on my way home.

Hopefully I can do better next time, at least I learnt a lesson today.

Lastly, I haven't failed, I've just found 10 000 ways that won't work. (: