Promise made
I was feeling bored, so I went into friendster to pass my time. I recalled the promise I made to Jacie long time ago, which is to look at her friendster profile's photos. I can't believe that I am a person who breaks my promise, I took such a long time before I went to view her profile, a mistake again. The photo which I took with her is still there, that shows that she doesn't hate me. To think that I had actually left her out, didn't talk to her at the school party. I was so damn heartless, and so mean. The last time she called me was about weeks ago, and I ended the call after five minutes. I didn't deliberately did that, I wanted to watch televeision. I looked at her individual photo for seconds, and I felt so guilty. I was so wrong to only remember her weaknesses but not her good points, I forgot her feelings! She treated me to her sweets, accompany me after school yet I was so cold towards her. She asked me why I didn't talk to her at the party, I said"really? I did talk to you." What a stupid excuse I gave her! And I was so mean. Everyone kind of shunned her, I used past tense as I do not know if they still feel that way. But I didn't, although I was mean to her. They kind of talked behind her back, criticised her saying that she looks like.. And I totally disagree, sorry if this is offensive or something. If you were the one who is being criticised, how would you feel? If I were the one, I would just cry, and then maybe bang my head. And I always lost my temper, because it's either she didn't understand me or I didn't. The thing about switching best friends, and the school party were the most cruel ones. I thought that she would be the one with me for this year at the beginning of the year, but I was wrong.You didn't know how many things took place, and eventually landed us in this state with different partners, and unexpected changes with more problems ahead everyday. Tired of that, been struggling for the past months, so I am quite relieved that it's holidays now.