Gaps
This holiday is bringing me both happiness and unhappiness. I don't know why, there seems to be a gap between my friend and me now. I don't understand her, her post talks about sadness, friends seem to be avoiding her, no one wants to go out with her, they will just make excuses to end the call with her and so on. I am not offended by what she posted. But I thought that I should maybe ask her what happened. I asked her in msn if I did avoid her, she said no. She asked me what I am always busy about at home and that I am always busy. I asked her" no one wants to go out with you?" She said ya. So, I asked her why but she said nothing. I asked her if she was referring to me in her post, she said no. I said"what is wrong?I want to know, tell me."She still replied nothing, I told her that it's okay.But she said it's really nothing. Maybe she really wasn't referring to me, but I want her to understand that it's okay to voice out her unhappiness about me to me. Maybe she will say that there is no chance for her to tell me since I am always busy, she can tell me via sms or msn. When she calls me, it so happened that I have a programme to watch, so I have to end the call. And frankly speaking, I don't know what to say either. If she is indeed mad at me about something, she should tell me and not hide it. I am not one who can read someone's mind.

And yeah, about the library book thingy, that day when I went out with Ally and Jillian, I met up with Ally at Queenstown library, of course the first thought which would came to mind would be"bring the book along so that you could return it." It was due to convenience, maybe I was abit inconsiderate on that area, for not telling you that I would be going to the libarary to return the book, but it's at queenstown and it's only for a short while as we had to move on to tiong bahru. It wasn't intentional. I don't know, I am just listing the possibilities and explaining it now.

Realised that in life, problems are challenges and fears which we should overcome. The thing about red packets, finally, I understand a point, since I am not close to my relatives, of course I won't have anything from them. Each year, my brothers and I receive $20 each, for others, each year, they will receive about $100, after five years, I will have about $100 but others will have $500. It's better to depend on myself, I thought. Since, it's the same every year, I have to overcome the sadness, disappointment.Yeah, so that's it.