Might be or not be too late
The last day of school will be on this thursday, and the dismissal time will be at ten am. I find this starting of holidays too early and the dismissal time too. I went to the canteen after the excursion back from the discovery centre to school, and find no one except his friends. Anyway, I don't think he came to school today, but I just wanted to try out my luck, I thought maybe he had to come back because of some urgent matters. I was so sad after that, as there is only one last chance of taking a glance of him, which is on Thursday.And I don't think I will be able to. I went silent after walking out from the school to Bukit Merah central with Jasmine, Xinyi and Jacie. I was so silent that they thought that there was something wrong with me.Actually, there is. It was like I was so sad that I went so deep in thought and was distracted, well, I ignored what was happening surrounding me. And because I have not seen him for days, I tried to imagine his looks. If I want him well, I should be happy for him that he is sitting for his o' level? Well, I should. On the other hand, I am really sad and down. Hope that he is not reading this post, otherwise I would not know how to face him. And the timing went wrong that it did not even allowed me to see him for one glance, not even one for days. I guess he must be very happy now, as he is going to complete his secondary education. There are things he left for me which are meaningful, he is not de.. they are the school magazine, his smiles, rumours, the way when he is a pai kia, the way he looked at me..if I am not mistaken. Even if I am, look at the state I am in now. I could easily find his face in the school magazine by flipping the pages to his class photo.I am not a pervert, but this is the only photo I have of him, lol.I must be mad.