This is wad I mean by crazy imaginations
Just here to say something.Actually, after yesterday, I started to feel tt my another fren is a les, her name is not jasmine.Well, I was just having some crazy imaginations and.. you know? I am always like tt.Too sensitive.Well, sry if wad I said hurt tt person.I noe tt this is untrue, but, I considered all the possible reasons why I feel tt way.And, eek..it is scary.I was too scared after wad my fren did to me,she is glued to me to wherever I go.Maybe this is how she express herself to me tt she wants to be my friend.But,I think I have to think of something to let her know tt I am not a les for in case..you know?Now tt I feel this way, my reactions to her for certain things might be weird.But, I think she is not one.
I WANT to be with my two close friends in my class.PLEASE,PLEASE!I am going mad at this rate.I realised tt I need to laugh in school no matter wad, and I can't just keep on sigh or just force a smile in school.I want, I want, this is wad I really want to do.And how can I ever tell her this?This will really hurt her.This is one of the ways in which I can tell her how I feel, and maybe she will be reading my posts soon.The happiness which I enjoy with my close friends are undescribable.I am not a les but I want to do wad I want.But, how?Unless I will be ruthless and..well, just cast her to one side.NONO,I can't do tt.It's too cruel.Then how?Maybe I shouldn't care for her feelings and just do it?!But it's like I am inhuman.Can you imagine?If I am in her shoes, I would cry and cry and cry like mad, non-stop.And, I will feel really hurt.Maybe I should talk to her and tell her everything?What if later I said something wrong or what if she shoots me with questions which I always hate?But, I thought everything which I did,example,running away with my friends, are obvious enough to tell her everything?WHAT should I do?No happiness in school, lol, though sometimes there is.I tried almost everything including telling her tt she can join other frens, but can she understand me?Maybe she understands me, but pretended not to, as you know, sometimes, it's better to feign ignorance.